Travel Bug.

I'm back in Sydney and have caught up on the lack I sleep I didn't get last weekend during my Melbourne trip so expect me to be back in the game with my posting. Unless I get writer's block which I experienced both Friday and Saturday. The feeling sucks.

Anyways this post is about the picture below and it's one of my goals for 2011. I know, I know, 2010 is still beginning but ever since I got back, I also got paid and I'm putting it all towards my savings for a trip to here:


Of course the trip will feature many other destinations but this is my #1 stop.

Patiently waiting til then,
chauie

Melbourne Boy

Met with a guy in Melbourne on a night out
And though we've met before
Briefly last time I was in town
This time we got to know each other better
And it was time spent in an intimate setting
The chemistry between us was crazy
He literally sent shivers through me
Each time he spoke to me... and his breath hit my skin,
My body felt goosebumps
I don't know if it was the exciting vibe of the night
The alcohol that was flowing
Or the things he said and the way he looked at me
But each time we were in conversation, the chemistry just kept rising - that was one thing I knew for sure.

The funny thing is, he is the opposite of what I'm usually attracted to...

x
chauie

Content in Melbourne.

So I've been back from Melbourne for a few days now but I've just been avoiding writing altogether for some reason. I can't seem to get into it. It's most likely writer's block. Anyhow, this piece was written on the place during the flight from Sydney to Melbourne and I started to type it in my blackberry (hence the date) but then I wrote way more than I anticipated and reverted back to my good ol' notebook.

Here we go.. (I don't know what brought upon this mood either)

There are times in life when you want someone around you. Someone to be with you. Hold you. Love you. Respect you. But most importantly, accept you for who you are. Accept the things you've done in the past and be glad that it's made you the person you are today.

Other times in life, you just want to be alone. To be left alone. Not consult anyone for advice. To be independent. And just going for it.

Kind of like the way I feel right now.

As I sit on this plane by myself, I feel content. I'm happy with the way things have turned out for me thus far. Some things I'd like to forget, but for the most part, life is good. To be happy is the most important thing in life, isn't it? Moreso than money and love? (I know many people would argue with me on that, but each to their own. These are my opinions, remember?)

For those in my life who see me regularly, you'd know that there isn't a day that passes where I'm not smiling. And it's crazy to think that people have asked me time and time again, 'Why are you so happy?'.

What they don't know is, sometimes, those smiles are masking certain feelings. Hiding certain emotions. But I do my best not to let it show - at least not to those around me who know me as the girl who loves to write and is always smiling hehe

I admit, I do tend to not disclose the information that has me feeling the opposite of happy. I've learnt a lot about myself during the past couple of years, like when I'm happy, I'm easily persuaded to let others know the reason behind my smile... just to share the positive vibe around.

When I feel that first cut, however, I tend to be a little quieter throughout the day, waiting for the moment when I'm in my room. Alone. Then depending on how much it hurts, I'll either hide under the covers and try to forget, or I'll turn on my laptop, let the feelings brew and start writing. And I usually won't stop until I've let it all out.

Few people pick up on my mood (when this happens) but most don't and that's okay.

Right now though, I'm not feeling like that at all. I'm feeling content, excited, nervous, curious and I'm patiently waiting for a certain someone to answer me back.

I'm on the plane on the way to Melbourne, but as much as most people in my life think it's just another holiday, it's moreso a trip for me to meet the team of people I've recently started working with. I'm part excited, part nervous about it - only because I want to make a good impression. Coz well, the first impression counts doesn't it? Hopefully all will be okay...

As for that certain someone? That particular individual is back in Sydney and has no idea that I'm on my way to Melbourne (unless they decide to stalk my Facebook!). But if they are ready to give me an answer, I guess I'll have to wait til I'm back in Sydney to hear what they have to say.

Til then, I'm ready for whatever Melbourne has to offer me.

I'm out.
Peace yo.
chauie

M.I.A

Hello Hello

Just wanted to let you guys know that I'll be M.I.A (missing in action) for the next few days as I'm off to Melbourne later today for an Acclaim event - soo excited!!

So therefore that means I most likely will not be posting anything. I'll probably still be writing a few pieces here and there but I generally will not be able to post.

In the meantime, check out my review (below) of the Lupe Fiasco gig this past Sunday at Sydney's own Enmore Theatre at my second family's website: http://www.thirteenitches.com.au/ or to click straight on to the review: http://www.thirteenitches.com.au/blog/?p=1764

Peace out yo.

Take care.

x

Update: Balance

I've had a really good 24 hours.

I planned to do nothing this weekend, but last night, I went over to a mate's place and watched him and one of my best mates make beats and experiment with their DJ equipment. It was pretty crazy to watch and listen to whilst I was lost in my own thoughts.

I've been a little paranoid with one of my mates thinking he was pissed at me but last night we hung out / chilled / vibed and talked and it was just like old times.

It was something that I was definitely missing.

After last night, I feel like my life has reached somewhat of a balance.

Before last night, I had hardly seen any of my friends face-to-face for almost a month coz of all the craziness that had been happening - re: work, friends, writing, planning, family. But last night, it was good to see my best mate and not have any animosity or tension between us.

Anyways I've got a busy week ahead of me: concerts, class, work and my mini holiday to Melbourne! Can't wait!

- Going to check out Lupe Fiasco tonight at the Enmore and Jimmy Eat World tuesday night. Don't know if I'll do any reviews on either gigs but we'll see what happens.
- Class and work is part of my normal schedule although I'll want to speed through those hours hehe
- Thursday I jump on a plane to head down to Melbourne for a trip that will be both business and pleasure :)

Oh by the way, finally saw (one of my favourite artists) Kid Cudi live and whilst it probably wasn't the best time of my life, I'm still happy I got to experience it! Hopefully he'll come back soon and do some shows. Fingers crossed in the meantime.

As for that guy whom has recently entered in my life and could be a potential? Things are going alright for the moment and whilst I haven't told many people about it... I'm okay with things for now. At the moment, if things don't work out... I think I'll be okay. Key word: think haha

Anyways I'm outta here.
Gotta get ready and stuff.
Peace and love yo.
x
chauie

There There

(Written on 28 November 2009)

There's just some things you realise that you want and things you don't.

I wish my best friend was here with me right now.

There are times when I feel like I still put my guard up with her (coz of my past experiences) but I think this weekend - this trip - would have been the perfect time for the both of us to have a good ol' heart to heart.

There are two best friends on this trip and seeing them earlier chatting away and catching up made me miss mine even more.

She's finished with Uni now so maybe someday soon...

I also miss my Auntie.

I feel like I haven't experienced that closure for her since she passed. I feel like I haven't cried all the tears I can possibly endure. I haven't yet let go of all of the emotions that are bottled up within me right now (and I know they're still there coz I let some escape the first night we were here).

The worst part is, (and I can't keep thinking about it either), that I realised too late that I never got to say all the things I wanted to say when the realisation of her loss hit me.
Sometimes I wish my aunt wasn't cremated and was buried instead so that I could go to her grave (on my own terms) whenever I needed to and just speak my thoughts - out loud.

My hands shake and my eyes are welling up as I write this and listen to Thom York singing out to me 'Just coz you feel it, doesn't mean it's there.' (Radiohead, There There)

I've escaped from the rest of my group of friends for the moment to jot down my thoughts but it saddens me a bit knowing that they haven't noticed that I'm missing and come looking for me... coz well, it's been awhile..

A bit of a lengthy one,
chauie

Future Plans

So during my stressful week last week, I organised to have some downtime with one of the best males in my life - Jussy - with some gossip, bitching, catch-up and making future plans. We generally meet up once a month, but with both of us leading hectic schedules nowadays, this was the first night in about 3-4 months we had seen each other and really got to do one of our "talks".

Usually the majority of our catch-ups involve talking about our crazy rendezvous with the random boys popping up in our lives and indeed there were stories to tell that night! ;) Unfortunately our dinner didn't last very long and we had to rush through dessert as I had another commitment to be at after dinner but we did get to talking about something that has got me quite excited: travel plans!


After being hit with the travelling bug after my big trip to Japan with friends earlier on in the year, I've decided to make one big trip each year - that way, I can gather enough leave at work to actually go without having to lose my job over it (as much as I do complain about being there!) and I am able to give myself enough time to save up enough dosh to travel for as long as I want.

Anyways we got to talking and the next trip on the cards is to pop on over to the States - most likely East Coast. I really wanna go to New York and he really wants to go La La Land and we both want to go to Miami. I cannot wait!

We also made plans and a promise to each other that before we're 30, we will travel around the world together. The plan is that no matter where we are or what we're doing, if we haven't gone by the time he turns 30 [April bday], we will plan our trip to go asap before I hit 30 [December bday].

There was also a plan interlinked with that trip that if we were in relationships, we would leave our partners behind for a few months and go on this trip and if we were in jobs, we would quit and come back starting completely over.

Don't know about that last one, but we'll see :0)

Peace yo.
chauie