Matchy Matchy

I'm on the train

And saw a couple walking past at one of the stops

Both dressed up in matching sneakers

My question is,

Why do couples feel the need to do it?

I know that being in a relationship, you both influence each other's style and whatnot, but do you both have to match your outfit from head to toe?

(And trust me, I've seen a couple doing that before)

Isn't the act of holding hands enough of a sign that you're 'together'?
Guess not, if they feel they have to go one (unnecessary) step further and buying matchy matchy clothes together!

Quite sad in my opinion.
Pass me a bucket please.

x
chauie

Existence

I was sitting in class earlier tonight and I started having second thoughts about it all.
But I think it went further than just me not wanting to be in class.
It was more about whether I should be here at all.

My existence.

Would it really matter to anyone if I was here or not?
If I disappeared for a week, how long would it take you to realise that I was missing?
If I shut off my phone and left my emails unread, what would happen?
What would you do?
Would you know if I had gone into hiding?

I don't see a lot of people on a regular basis. I have 300+ friends on Facebook and I see maybe 10% of them on a weekly basis. I reckon I could go on living life for about a month and end up only seeing 10 and that's only because of the people I work with.

But for some 'friends', though they say they'll keep in touch, there have hardly been any signs o that being true: no missed calls, no emails, no txt msgs.. not even a comment on my wall to say 'Hi'...

Next week, I'm on a two-week break from class and I've decided to really re-assess my life.
Taking the advice of my workmate, I'm going to re-assess the 'friends' I have too.

It feels like it's time for a change.

Chopping my hair off.
Re-assessing my life.
Organising my home-life.
Re-assessing my friends.
Changing my attitude.

I hope doing these abovementioned things will push me and give me an extra dose of much-needed confidence.
I went to a workshop at work today and leaving this particular session, left me with three key things that I needed to do. One of which was: "LEARN TO SAY NO!"

I'm out.
x
chauie
'I don't go with yesterday no more (Ooh). Now I'm feeling free (I'm feeling free). Today tomorrow told me (What it say?). That's where I should be (That's where I should be)' - T.O.N.Y, Solange Knowles

Don't Hate The Player...

Hate the game!

I really do hate playing games.
These certain games that guys and girls play to get each other's attention.
It's sad in a sense
That we have to think about each move we take next.
And someone always seems to get hurt
When the wrong move is made.
But who's to say it is wrong?
Emotions just keep getting played with
Roll the dice..
And find out how you're gonna feel next

If you read my blog often, you'll know that there's a guy who has recently entered my life, but with the mixed messages he kept sending me, I was often left confused.

I was sick of feeling this way
And didn't want to be lead on... again.
Coz there have been way too many times that I've experienced being in that position
So I took matters into my own hands and told him straight up:
"I don't like playing games"

So far, so good - I haven't heard from him since.

x
chauie
'And you keep on playing games. Like you know I'm here to stay. I gotta shake it off' - Shake It Off, Mariah Carey

Work and Stuff.

Yesterday I had my quarterly review with my manager and I told her exactly how I was feeling.

How I've been feeling.

Basically I lay out all the cards on the table.

Of course, this lead to a little breakdown but I'm okay now. Well today anyway.

It was just good to finally get things off my chest about all the pressure and the workload and whilst sometimes it's my fault - taking on more than i can handle and such - for the most part, it's other people.

Ugh. Someone get me another job please.

x
chauie

My Status

Everyone is all coupled up.
Whether it be with their partner, a friend or family.
Everyone is in twos.
If this were happening to me last week, I probably would have walked away by now feeling a little depressed, but this week, I've found myself thinking in a new perspective - especially when it comes to love.
I've always been unlucky in love and I always used to care.
About my relationship status and what other people thought when I told them I was unattached. Especially with friends.
Some don't care.
Others feel the need to push me to every random cute and single boy they see.
It can get quite frustrating at times and though most times, you'll find me playing along..
Deep down, I wasn't happy with what was happening.
The situations and conversations I would find myself in...
I can't even find the words to describe the way I was feeling within those moments but it was far more than awkward.
I think I'm feeling this way, at this point in time, because of a certain boy who's recently entered my life.
But as bad as it sounds, his actions have had me running away rather than into his arms..

Just you wait though - knowing me, my mood will switch up again next week.
Til then.

Peace yo.
x
chauie

Today Was A Great Day!

Today I found out some great news!

In relation to my writing that is... hehe

Jeff Staple (iconic streetwear designer whom I, and a few of the itches clan, met in Melbourne) liked MY review of the Buffet event!

The fact that he read the thirteen itches blog first of all is big news - major exposure for the label. But even bigger is him saying that he liked my review is soo awesome! Couldn't wipe the smile off my face hehe

Check out what he said:

"Check out the Thirteen Itches blog and Frank/Qubic’s blog for a great write-up from a local’s perspective."

This is a major compliment!!!

Even further, it tells me that I didn't make a mistake choosing to write for the rest of my life hehe

Anyways, you can check out Mr Staple's review here.

And above, well I had to add it in but it's a pic of he and I (and his fries!) in Melbourne after the Buffet forums :0)

You Think You Know Someone...

But you really don't.

Maybe I'm reading too much into this but I was on Facebook earlier and saw that one of my best friends is celebrating his birthday next month...

The thing is, the news of the event was in my News Feed. I didn't exactly get an invite for it.

There's an option to view it and then "Request an Invite" but how desperate would it look if I did that?

I don't know whether to hold a grudge and make my own plans 'on the night' or what...

As someone's best friend, wouldn't you expect to be at least top 5 on their invite list?

Whatever. I'm going out for some retail therapy even though I should be saving for my US trip.
This piece of news just has me feeling so... argh!

Out.
chauie

Here's A Crazy Thought..

Went to a meeting today with the rest of the team and we watched a video at the end - it was supposed to motivate us to provide better customer service to our clients and stuff like that - but the main message I got from it was that you need to be working in a place that makes you happy and makes you wanna get out of bed every morning.

I went to back to my desk thinking with the feeling that the video affected me in the opposite way it would have affected the rest of my team.

I'm not happy at my current job.

You'd think after being there for years, things would be all gravy, but no.

Everyone acts supportive but when you look underneath, they all just kind of wanna bring you down. It's a bit fucked up.

All I could think about all day was turning up tomorrow and saying this:

On that note, I'm out.
chauie

Funny Like That.

Funny the way things turned out.

Just as I was feeling glum 24 hours ago about a certain friend, right now that certain friend and I are making plans to have dinner tomorrow night to catch up!

I can't help but smile at that :)

Short and sweet tonight.
I have to go back and edit my assessment.
I always go over the word limit - dammit.
x
chauie

Glum.

Ever since you got back to Sydney we haven't had a proper conversation.

Not properly.

The way we used to.

Even online.

I'll message you - but nothing

And I know you're there.

But the only things I've received from you are hugs.

But then I also know / realise that you'd rather spend your free time with the new person in your life.

Coz when you don't have free time, you're either at work or asleep or doing your community activities.

And that's fine.

But I miss you.

I miss our chats.

I miss your advice and your words of encouragement.

The picture has nothing to do with this post.

It was taken in Melbourne..

I'm just bored.

And feeling a little glum..

Out.

chauie

Travel Bug.

I'm back in Sydney and have caught up on the lack I sleep I didn't get last weekend during my Melbourne trip so expect me to be back in the game with my posting. Unless I get writer's block which I experienced both Friday and Saturday. The feeling sucks.

Anyways this post is about the picture below and it's one of my goals for 2011. I know, I know, 2010 is still beginning but ever since I got back, I also got paid and I'm putting it all towards my savings for a trip to here:


Of course the trip will feature many other destinations but this is my #1 stop.

Patiently waiting til then,
chauie

Melbourne Boy

Met with a guy in Melbourne on a night out
And though we've met before
Briefly last time I was in town
This time we got to know each other better
And it was time spent in an intimate setting
The chemistry between us was crazy
He literally sent shivers through me
Each time he spoke to me... and his breath hit my skin,
My body felt goosebumps
I don't know if it was the exciting vibe of the night
The alcohol that was flowing
Or the things he said and the way he looked at me
But each time we were in conversation, the chemistry just kept rising - that was one thing I knew for sure.

The funny thing is, he is the opposite of what I'm usually attracted to...

x
chauie