Regret

Lots of mixed thoughts surrounding what happened last night
I admit it, I had expectations
Even though I just wanted to go with the flow
I couldn't help it
When i saw him, hugged him
All those carefree thoughts went out the window

But as the night went on...
I felt the distance between us
Even though we were sitting right next to each other

That's what I felt.
Who knows what you were feeling
Or thinking for that matter.

Your comment to me woke me up and in turn, I turned my back on you
For the rest of the night
But I guess you were fine
Coz you were occupied by conversation from another lady
And you seemed happy
So maybe I should stop trying.

Maybe that's just my paranoia setting in again.
Two weeks in a row
Where both Saturdays I've woken up and haven't exactly felt the best about the previous night's experiences.

I'm feeling more or less regretful about the whole situation
Why did I kiss him,
When I wanted to kiss you?

Out for now.
There might be more later.
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