I just had the most intense, emotional and honest conversation with a friend which later lead me confessing things to another friend.
It must of been something in the air coz I let my guard down and I relived my past.
I was in tears all throughout...
It wasn't the best feeling but afterwards I felt good.
At one point, my brother came into the room and asked me why I was crying and I had to lie and say that my friend just told me some sad news when really it was me telling my friends some sad stuff.
When he left the room, I broke down.
An hour ago I was an emotional mess.
But now, I'm glad I finally told more than one person in my circle of friends.
The question is, Can I breathe now?
Night,
chauie
'..In reality I'm slowly losing my mind, Underneath the guise of smile. Gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly, Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering' - Breakdown, Mariah Carey ftg Bone Thugz & Harmony
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Music of Twilight: New Moon
Okay so maybe I'm one of two people left on this planet who haven't yet jumped onto the Twilight saga bandwagon but I just don't see what's so special about it. My workmate lent me the first book a couple of months ago and I told her I wasn't going to read it. Needless to say, that same book is still sitting on my desk collecting dust. Sorry.
1. Death Cab for Cutie - Meet Me On the Equinox
And I really don't think the lead characters are hot - you're joking right? I know it's the characters they play that everyone is in love with but still.
Anyways I'm not here to diss the movie/book/teen love story/whatever, I'm actually here to applaud the people who chose the music for the soundtrack of the second installment of the series: New Moon.
Have you guys checked out the track-listing? It's fantastic!
For those who can't see it above - I've rewritten it below for you :)
1. Death Cab for Cutie - Meet Me On the Equinox
2. Band of Skulls - Friends
3. Thom Yorke - Hearing Damage
4. Lykke Li - Possibility
5. The Killers - A White Demon Love Song
6. Anya Marina - Satellite Heart
7. Muse - I Belong To You (New Moon Remix)
8. Bon Iver & St. Vincent - Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Done All Wrong
10. Hurrican Bells - Monsters
11. Sea Wolf - The Violet Hour
12. OK Go - Shooting the Moon
13. Grizzly Bear (with Victor Legrand) - Slow Life
14. Editors - No Sound But the Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat - New Moon (The Meadow)
Bonus iTunes track:
16. Lupe Fiasco - Solar Midnite
Actually makes me want to go out and buy the record or download it, even though I have no interest in the story / concept of what these songs are supposedly relating to.
Check it out!
Pictures courtesy of Reel Movie News and Twilight-Review.com
Happy listening,
Happy listening,
chauie
Little People Project
I just did a post for my 13itches familia and I'm pretty happy with how it turned out, so I thought I'd post it here too - check it!
UK artist Slinkachu started his Little People Project a few years ago, back in 2006, by taking miniature train set characters, remodelling and painting them, and then leaving them around the city with the ordinary problems and situations we’re faced with to fend for themselves.
"The scenes I set up, more evident through the photography, and the titles I give these scenes aim to reflect the loneliness and melancholy of living in a big city, almost being lost and overwhelmed. But underneath this, there is always some humour. I want people to be able to empathise with the tiny people in my works."
Slinkachu really captures the feel of life, like for example with the three images above, through contemplation, romance and disaster. The urban art installations are so small they tend to blend in with the surrounding street and sidewalk debris, so next time you’re walking through the streets of London, be sure to watch your step!
Check out my favourite below, aptly titled ‘Life As We Know It’:
This is an artist whose blog I regularly check back on to see what other ordinary situations he’s placed these “little people” into and you can do the same at http://little-people.blogspot.com/ .
Photos courtesy of Little People.
Enjoy yo!
~
Imagine randomly walking through the streets of London and (if you’ve got great vision) stumbling upon ‘little hand-painted people, left in London to fend for themselves’.
UK artist Slinkachu started his Little People Project a few years ago, back in 2006, by taking miniature train set characters, remodelling and painting them, and then leaving them around the city with the ordinary problems and situations we’re faced with to fend for themselves.
"The scenes I set up, more evident through the photography, and the titles I give these scenes aim to reflect the loneliness and melancholy of living in a big city, almost being lost and overwhelmed. But underneath this, there is always some humour. I want people to be able to empathise with the tiny people in my works."
Slinkachu really captures the feel of life, like for example with the three images above, through contemplation, romance and disaster. The urban art installations are so small they tend to blend in with the surrounding street and sidewalk debris, so next time you’re walking through the streets of London, be sure to watch your step!
Check out my favourite below, aptly titled ‘Life As We Know It’:
This is an artist whose blog I regularly check back on to see what other ordinary situations he’s placed these “little people” into and you can do the same at http://little-people.blogspot.com/ .
Photos courtesy of Little People.
Enjoy yo!
chauie
To Forgive... Or Not?
I was chatting with a good mate of mine online last week and he told me that even though it's only been a couple months, he felt the need to contact his ex and send her a text message to see how she was going.
For me, that was the first sign that this was not going to go anywhere positive.
It was a sign that even though I did not think she deserved it, in a sense, it felt like he wanted to.
After all the feelings and emotions he went through because of the break-up, a part of him still wanted to forgive her.
He also told me that he sensed the feeling that she missed me - as a friend and as one of the girls she could turn to. He asked me to initiate the contact with her and I told him that I wasn't sure if I could but that I'd think about it.
Not wanting to drag this conversation out any further, for fear of where it might lead and what things might have come out of our thoughts if we continued, I said goodnight and logged off.
The next morning and for a few days after that conversation, I kept thinking about my conversation with him and each time, I came back with the same conclusion / question. A question that I want to say to him but I don't know if I can... that question being:
This question just doesn't apply to him and the way he treated her but to all relationships and friendships. Do people really deserve a second chance if they did you wrong?
I applied it to a friendship I had that was recently "broken" [with a girl at work] and for me, I just don't think I could do it. Forgive them, I mean.
Needless to say, at this point, I don't think I'll be picking up the phone to send a text message - to either girl.
Peace,
chauie
'And when you say it doesn't matter, well it does. And all it takes is a mistake to eat your words', - Second Chances, Michelle Branch
For me, that was the first sign that this was not going to go anywhere positive.
It was a sign that even though I did not think she deserved it, in a sense, it felt like he wanted to.
After all the feelings and emotions he went through because of the break-up, a part of him still wanted to forgive her.
He also told me that he sensed the feeling that she missed me - as a friend and as one of the girls she could turn to. He asked me to initiate the contact with her and I told him that I wasn't sure if I could but that I'd think about it.
Not wanting to drag this conversation out any further, for fear of where it might lead and what things might have come out of our thoughts if we continued, I said goodnight and logged off.
The next morning and for a few days after that conversation, I kept thinking about my conversation with him and each time, I came back with the same conclusion / question. A question that I want to say to him but I don't know if I can... that question being:
'How can you forgive someone who treated you like shit?'
This question just doesn't apply to him and the way he treated her but to all relationships and friendships. Do people really deserve a second chance if they did you wrong?
I applied it to a friendship I had that was recently "broken" [with a girl at work] and for me, I just don't think I could do it. Forgive them, I mean.
Needless to say, at this point, I don't think I'll be picking up the phone to send a text message - to either girl.
Peace,
chauie
'And when you say it doesn't matter, well it does. And all it takes is a mistake to eat your words', - Second Chances, Michelle Branch
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Future Plans
So during my stressful week last week, I organised to have some downtime with one of the best males in my life - Jussy - with some gossip, bitching, catch-up and making future plans. We generally meet up once a month, but with both of us leading hectic schedules nowadays, this was the first night in about 3-4 months we had seen each other and really got to do one of our "talks".
Usually the majority of our catch-ups involve talking about our crazy rendezvous with the random boys popping up in our lives and indeed there were stories to tell that night! ;) Unfortunately our dinner didn't last very long and we had to rush through dessert as I had another commitment to be at after dinner but we did get to talking about something that has got me quite excited: travel plans!
After being hit with the travelling bug after my big trip to Japan with friends earlier on in the year, I've decided to make one big trip each year - that way, I can gather enough leave at work to actually go without having to lose my job over it (as much as I do complain about being there!) and I am able to give myself enough time to save up enough dosh to travel for as long as I want.
Usually the majority of our catch-ups involve talking about our crazy rendezvous with the random boys popping up in our lives and indeed there were stories to tell that night! ;) Unfortunately our dinner didn't last very long and we had to rush through dessert as I had another commitment to be at after dinner but we did get to talking about something that has got me quite excited: travel plans!
After being hit with the travelling bug after my big trip to Japan with friends earlier on in the year, I've decided to make one big trip each year - that way, I can gather enough leave at work to actually go without having to lose my job over it (as much as I do complain about being there!) and I am able to give myself enough time to save up enough dosh to travel for as long as I want.
Anyways we got to talking and the next trip on the cards is to pop on over to the States - most likely East Coast. I really wanna go to New York and he really wants to go La La Land and we both want to go to Miami. I cannot wait!
We also made plans and a promise to each other that before we're 30, we will travel around the world together. The plan is that no matter where we are or what we're doing, if we haven't gone by the time he turns 30 [April bday], we will plan our trip to go asap before I hit 30 [December bday].
There was also a plan interlinked with that trip that if we were in relationships, we would leave our partners behind for a few months and go on this trip and if we were in jobs, we would quit and come back starting completely over.
Don't know about that last one, but we'll see :0)
Peace yo.
chauie
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