Nineteen Minutes...

I'm reading this book by Jodi Picoult and the first page had me hooked. I read the first page in the bookstore and I just wanted to keep reading to find out more.

The first page is a short letter.

Really, it's a suicide note if you read it and understand the message behind it.

It really hit me too..

There have been times in my twenty-two years when I've wanted to leave, well not exactly this letter / message behind, but something along these lines and see what other people's reactions would be...

Check it:

By the time you read this, I hope to be dead.
You can't undo something that's happened; you can't take back a word that's already been said out loud. You'll think about me and wish that you had been able to talk me out of this. You'll try to figure out what would have been the one right thing to say, to do. I guess I should tell you,
Don't blame yourself, this isn't your fault,
but that would be a lie. We both know that I didn't get here by myself.
You'll cry, at my funeral. You'll say it didn't have to be this way. You will act like everyone expects you to. But will you miss me?
More importantly - will I miss you?
Does either one of us really want to hear the answer to that question?

Peace,

chauie

Jade – It’s My Heart, Cookie (EP)

So I was having a random conversation with my workmates the other day at lunch and we went over a topic I'm sure we've all discussed once in our lives: what's the one thing you could not live without?

The usual answers came up - chocolate, their car, food, sleep, etc but my answer was music. I have to have music playing in my life every day - whether it be through my earphones or just playing in the background, it's just one thing I can't live without.

I love listening to what new artists are throwing out there and seeing how they’re experimenting with all elements of music to create a fresh and unique sound. Here’s one artist that I came across reading Kid Cudi’s blog (http://www.kidcudi.com/) a while back.

(picture credit: http://www.myspace.com/jadeismusic)


I’ve had this EP for a few months now and at first I didn't want to share it. Sometimes you just want to keep the things you find secret and underground for fear that they’ll later become too mainstream and hipster. But I think everyone needs to listen to this young spirit right here.

Jade sings from and for the heart, mind, body and soul. Her lyrics are often described as ‘real and soulful’, and while that is true, her sound seems to reveal elements of rhythm and blues, with touches of experimental and candy-coated catchy pop aspects.

At the tender age of 22, Jade, born and raised in Brooklyn, New York, has only an EP out thus far, but she’s already got a growing following on MySpace and hopefully, in due time will be a rising artist.

‘I write whatever makes me feel good and I hope it makes you feel good too’, she says (via her MySpace account – http://www.myspace.com/jadeismusic).

Click the following link to download her EP, listen and see what I’m talking about:

http://www.zshare.net/download/58014457f31c8a89/

(If that doesn’t work, you can grab the link from her My Space.)

Hope you guys like it as much as I did when I first heard it! :)

Peace out.
x
chauie

Hip Hop Just Saved My Life...

So I've been listening to a lot of hip hop of late. Blame it on friends, blame it on the clubs, blame it on the random blogs I come across. Whatever it is, I'm glad.

Because I never really realised the message that most of the emcees out there spitting out are actually a deep insight into their lives and what they're going through. What they had to go through to get to where they are now.

And although predominantly, the artists that are high on rotation on my iTunes are American-based (Aussie hip hop ain't that great), as crazy as it sounds, I can relate. Just flip the male point of view and see it from a female's side.

I listen to all genres of music - I'm eclectic in that sense coz I like to keep an open mind. And although generally the melody compliments the lyrics, it's the words and message behind each song that get to me. Listen to them, read them, break them down and you'll see what the artist(s) is really trying to say. Trying to reach out and make a change (as cliche as that sounds).

I guess that's why I love to write. The fact that words can be so powerful that they evoke certain emotions is a crazy thing. But a good one, at that.

There are a handful of hip hop artists whose albums I'm excited to get my hands on later on in the year. Emcees whom, when I listen to them, can really break through the walls I put up around myself and get into the emotions I keep deep down inside. The emotions I keep hidden from the rest of the world.

It's all over when someone can do that.

Here's two of the (hip hop) albums I'm looking forward to coming out this year:

Just got word that Lupe Fiasco's album 'L.A.S.E.R.S' is due for release in December. I really hope that release date is international too. Fiasco is a lyrical genius in my opinion. His last album 'The Cool' might have to be one of my fave albums ever.

Of course I had to give a mention to Kid Cudi and his upcoming debut release 'Man on the Moon: The END of DAY'. I keep raving on about Cudi but I can't help it and when his album drops (internationally) Sept 15 (release date got pushed back), you'll see and understand exactly why.


More from me later,
chauie

Do You Ever?

Do you ever feel like no-one, especially your family, understands you?

Do you ever feel like the people around you, whether it be friends, family or someone you just met, tell you they get what you're saying, but in reality it's just a line of bullshit?

Ever feel like crying for no reason at all?
I do.

Well right now, I have a reason and of course it's family related and also links to the rest of my life.

But sometimes I just wanna cry for no reason.

I'll have thoughts ... obviously not the positive kind ... and they just seem to send me off into another world.

Sometimes I feel like I have to be two people. Have two personalities:

...the girl everyone wants me to be and the person that I really am...

which would you prefer?

x
chauie
"My mind is gone, I'm spinning around. And deep inside, my tears I'll drown" - Cry, Rihanna

I Love Him...

My sister came over for dinner last night with my nephew and honestly, there is nothing else that makes me smile more than that kid.

He's the only boy in my life that I love :)

He's just past eight months old and every little thing about him makes me smile.

It makes it seem like every other thing that I'm stressing about in life seem not important anymore.

That's the feeling I need. He's the main reason I'm still here.

It used to be other people but I've been doing a lot of thinking and I've realised there are a lot of judgmental people in my life.

People whom, when I tell something good happening in my life, they seem to tear it up in pieces.

And you wonder why my thinking is usually negative... if only you knew the people I had to deal with.

Above is a pic of the boy in my life that keeps me sane. :)

(Taken a few months ago but still cute as a button!)

Peace out...

chauie