On Tuesday, after the long weekend, I unwillingly went back to work only to find out that my account had expired.
I couldn't do anything for two hours!
Was someone giving me a sign that I was not meant to be there?
Not just that particular day, but at work - at all?
If only I could afford to quit and just write...
That's all.
chauie
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Realisation
I had a crazy day yesterday.
Some people just cease to amaze me in regards to the lengths of actions they'll take to avoid doing something that is 'hard'.
I admit I procrastinate a lot so it may take me a couple days to really face something challenging but if it has to be done that day, then ill do it.
Yesterday that girl started a new role within the team and an error occurred in the system.
Suck shit right? Figure out how to fix it.
Instead, she gets another guy in the team (whose last day is tomorrow by the way) to call up people to chase it up and find out what's wrong so that she can do whatever else was on her to-do list.
Poor guy and what a bitch.
It gets better though.
By lunch time, the system wasn't fixed and after no-one paying attention to her, she feigned sickness after eating something dodgy and goes home, leaving the rest of the team to do her dirty work.
Gr..
After all this though and class last night (yes, it was a long day!), I've realised something:
Do what you love.
Concentrate on people and projects that deserve your time.
That's all that really should matter.
Peace,
x
chauie
'Don't want to see you hear you, be anywhere near you, you probably think I'm threatened by you but your illusionary power doesn't threaten me. Actually I think it's kind of funny that you create an illusion that is a mirror, I don't appreciate you and I know that that surprises you' - Special Ones, George
Some people just cease to amaze me in regards to the lengths of actions they'll take to avoid doing something that is 'hard'.
I admit I procrastinate a lot so it may take me a couple days to really face something challenging but if it has to be done that day, then ill do it.
Yesterday that girl started a new role within the team and an error occurred in the system.
Suck shit right? Figure out how to fix it.
Instead, she gets another guy in the team (whose last day is tomorrow by the way) to call up people to chase it up and find out what's wrong so that she can do whatever else was on her to-do list.
Poor guy and what a bitch.
It gets better though.
By lunch time, the system wasn't fixed and after no-one paying attention to her, she feigned sickness after eating something dodgy and goes home, leaving the rest of the team to do her dirty work.
Gr..
After all this though and class last night (yes, it was a long day!), I've realised something:
Do what you love.
Concentrate on people and projects that deserve your time.
That's all that really should matter.
Peace,
x
chauie
'Don't want to see you hear you, be anywhere near you, you probably think I'm threatened by you but your illusionary power doesn't threaten me. Actually I think it's kind of funny that you create an illusion that is a mirror, I don't appreciate you and I know that that surprises you' - Special Ones, George
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Stalker?
What an interesting night.
Do you think I still fancy you?
In someway or another
Coz the both of you were quite guarded
Saying hello was so awkward
Kiss on the cheek or high-five?
You obviously couldn't decide
But I wonder if it was because she was right there..?
And even when you did lean in, her actions showed that she was protecting you
From what?
Me?
Listen here mate, I'm over you.
Sometimes I feel as though I hate you.
I know that hate is a strong word but when I think back on the past (and I know I shouldn't)
The reality is you treated me like shit
And I didn't deserve it
So I think I have the right to feel some hate towards you
I found it even funnier when you had to leave and you were telling everyone where you were going
Yet when you said goodbye to me, you simply said you had to be "somewhere"
Like you were scared of telling me the details..
What are you afraid of?
Did you think I was going to follow you and stalk you?
Get over yourself mate.
I could think of a million things better to do with my time
Like going home!
As for her, we talked last night...
And I was sober so I remember the whole conversation
I don't really care what's going on anymore
I just hope she's careful and that you don't treat her the way you treated me.
Out.
chauie
'Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running. A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you. More than you, more than you know' - Daughtry, Over You
Do you think I still fancy you?
In someway or another
Coz the both of you were quite guarded
Saying hello was so awkward
Kiss on the cheek or high-five?
You obviously couldn't decide
But I wonder if it was because she was right there..?
And even when you did lean in, her actions showed that she was protecting you
From what?
Me?
Listen here mate, I'm over you.
Sometimes I feel as though I hate you.
I know that hate is a strong word but when I think back on the past (and I know I shouldn't)
The reality is you treated me like shit
And I didn't deserve it
So I think I have the right to feel some hate towards you
I found it even funnier when you had to leave and you were telling everyone where you were going
Yet when you said goodbye to me, you simply said you had to be "somewhere"
Like you were scared of telling me the details..
What are you afraid of?
Did you think I was going to follow you and stalk you?
Get over yourself mate.
I could think of a million things better to do with my time
Like going home!
As for her, we talked last night...
And I was sober so I remember the whole conversation
I don't really care what's going on anymore
I just hope she's careful and that you don't treat her the way you treated me.
Out.
chauie
'Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running. A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you. More than you, more than you know' - Daughtry, Over You
Catch Up?
We were meant to catch up the other night
Her and I
But I don't know if I could have faced her
Alone.
After what happened..
But then it didn't go ahead
And I knew, in a sense, because of what he said
But I thought I'd ask anyway, playing dumb and all
He told us you both were going on a date
Even if neither of you want to admit that you're together
We all know already
It was pretty obvious to all whom were there
Now it's just time for the announcement - will it be her or him who speaks
Despite all that, I had a fabolous night
Finally chopped off my hair, then met up with a girlfriend for dinner and a glass of wine.
I really hope things take a turn now.
One for the positive
One that is in the present (love you Ann!)
Sleepy now,
x
chauie
"To change I must first wholly accept the present moment. This moment, as it is, is perfect." - TDL
Her and I
But I don't know if I could have faced her
Alone.
After what happened..
But then it didn't go ahead
And I knew, in a sense, because of what he said
But I thought I'd ask anyway, playing dumb and all
He told us you both were going on a date
Even if neither of you want to admit that you're together
We all know already
It was pretty obvious to all whom were there
Now it's just time for the announcement - will it be her or him who speaks
Despite all that, I had a fabolous night
Finally chopped off my hair, then met up with a girlfriend for dinner and a glass of wine.
I really hope things take a turn now.
One for the positive
One that is in the present (love you Ann!)
Sleepy now,
x
chauie
"To change I must first wholly accept the present moment. This moment, as it is, is perfect." - TDL
Mute.
I wrote this Tuesday night on the train on the way home from work and after a long day of trying to de-stress my mind and thoughts.
Silence.
I feel so mute at the moment.
My heart is beating twice as usual but not because I'm excited.
Moreso stressed than anything else.
Today I felt like I was swimming against the tide
It felt almost like I was drowning
Within the waters
Which instead of the ocean was a mountain of paperwork.
No matter how much I tried to get done, my to-do pile was not diminishing
I've told my manager what's been going on
The causes of my stress
Or rather the one person who contributes a large amount to my stress
Conveniently that person is on leave at the moment
I've spoken to my manager about how I feel but it seems I've just left her with a bunch of words stringed together into sentences because no action has been taken.
Yet.
Maybe when she comes back from leave.
Maybe.
But I doubt it.
Peace yo
x
chauie
Silence.
I feel so mute at the moment.
My heart is beating twice as usual but not because I'm excited.
Moreso stressed than anything else.
Today I felt like I was swimming against the tide
It felt almost like I was drowning
Within the waters
Which instead of the ocean was a mountain of paperwork.
No matter how much I tried to get done, my to-do pile was not diminishing
I've told my manager what's been going on
The causes of my stress
Or rather the one person who contributes a large amount to my stress
Conveniently that person is on leave at the moment
I've spoken to my manager about how I feel but it seems I've just left her with a bunch of words stringed together into sentences because no action has been taken.
Yet.
Maybe when she comes back from leave.
Maybe.
But I doubt it.
Peace yo
x
chauie
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