Independent (I Gotta)

Guess I gotta go back to being the girl I've always been
Independent
(my own) Woman
Making my own decisions
Not giving a shit about what other people say
I may ask for advice
But at the end of the day, it's me making that decision
That choice
What will I be deciding next?

Gotta get into that mindset:
That 'it's your loss'
I just can't help but wonder
Would it be different
If you had been the one to approach me?

I noticed you watching me
And I kinda wish it was you that approached me
But I know there are things I gotta be cautious about
Things I have yet to physically see

You looked over at me
Yet I still can't figure you out
You've got me intrigued
Can't (seem to) figure out what you're all about


Night yo.
chauie
'Who would I want if I would wanna live. I worked hard and sacrificed to get what I get. Ladies, it ain't easy being independent' - Independent Women, Destiny's Child

One Day

I wrote this piece a few weeks ago on the way home from class. I don't know why I didn't post it earlier... I supposed it's because certain things happened between then and now that had me switching my mind and deciding not to post it at all. But something interesting happened on Friday and so I went and looked for it and well... here it is. I guess it's true when people say that 'certain things happen when you least expect it'.

~

There are times when I see you
And I want to say Hi
But often you give me a look
That simply says Goodbye
A look that seems you're looking right through me
I know I've given off mixed vibes
But it's because of what you disclosed to he
Lately I've been dealing with personal shit
I kinda wish you knew...
Coz you were there when things first took its toll
I know now I can't trust many, only a few
A wise woman once told me,
'You should be able to count your true friends on one hand...'
You used to be there
But now you've slipped through like (tiny) grains of sand

You may not believe it
But I do hope we talk again one day
Until that moment,
I don't know what else I can say...

Peace yo.
chauie
'It's hard to say I miss you. Since you've been gone, it's not the same' - Hard To Say, The Used

Hoping

The bout of confidence I was looking for yesterday
Has seemed to disappear within 24 hours

I finished work early today and thought:
'Fuck it - I'm just gonna walk in there and see what happens'.

So I did but the wrong person approached me...
But I stayed conversing anyway...

Hoping
Hoping he would glance over and recognise my smile, my voice
Hoping something would trigger his memory from 'that' night

But I guess nothing did
Coz he didn't walk over

But then again, when the conversation was over,
I felt someone watching me...
... and when I looked up,
He looked away...

What now?

Curious,
chauie
'Cos I'm slipping away, like the sand to the tide. Flowing into your arms, falling into your eyes. If you get too near, I might disappear, I might lose my mind' - Too Lost In You, Sugababes

Why Can't I Be That Girl?

I wanna find that confidence within me that I had when I was in Melbourne.

I was mysterious

'The girl was in action'

A lot of times I wonder why I cant be that girl in Sydney.

Actually i know why...

I know the answer to my own question but it's stupid:

I'm scared.
Scared of rejection
Scared of conversation
Scared of those awkward silences
Scared of the fact that i know I'll clam up even when no words have been spoken

Anyhow,
Time to drag my sad self to bed now.

Night,
chauie
'Red letter day and I'm in a blue mood. Wishing that blue would just carry me away' - Many The Miles, Sara Bareilles

Where The Wild Things Are x Girl Skateboards

Hands up who can't wait for 'Where The Wild Things Are' to hit our screens?? :)

For those who don't know, Where The Wild Things Are is a 1963 children's picture book by American writer Maurice Sendak and was originally published by Harper & Row. The book has recently been adapted into a live-action feature film directed by Spike Jonze.

The film has already been released in the U.S [in mid-October] and won the weekend box office, taking in US$32.5 million. Many critics have noted that the adaptation of the popular's children book is rather dark and may be too scary for children, but older fans of the story will still love the story and concept of the movie.

Unfortunately the movie won't be hitting our Aussie screens until December 3rd and with the release of the movie, you can no doubt expect plenty of merchandise from shirts, hats, posters, the movie soundtrack (fronted by Karen O of the Yeah Yeah Yeahs and her friends), toys, games and plenty of accessories we probably won't need but will still want.

Until we are able to physically watch 'Where The Wild Things Are' at the movies, Girl Skateboards has gained inspiration from the movie and have designed these dope skateboard decks. So for anyone who likes to jump on a skateboard and land some tricks or travel their way into the distance, why not grab yourself one of these?

Damn, it makes me want to learn how to skate!

Photos courtesy of Lifelounge

Peace yo,

chauie