Melbourne Boy

Met with a guy in Melbourne on a night out
And though we've met before
Briefly last time I was in town
This time we got to know each other better
And it was time spent in an intimate setting
The chemistry between us was crazy
He literally sent shivers through me
Each time he spoke to me... and his breath hit my skin,
My body felt goosebumps
I don't know if it was the exciting vibe of the night
The alcohol that was flowing
Or the things he said and the way he looked at me
But each time we were in conversation, the chemistry just kept rising - that was one thing I knew for sure.

The funny thing is, he is the opposite of what I'm usually attracted to...

x
chauie

Content in Melbourne.

So I've been back from Melbourne for a few days now but I've just been avoiding writing altogether for some reason. I can't seem to get into it. It's most likely writer's block. Anyhow, this piece was written on the place during the flight from Sydney to Melbourne and I started to type it in my blackberry (hence the date) but then I wrote way more than I anticipated and reverted back to my good ol' notebook.

Here we go.. (I don't know what brought upon this mood either)

There are times in life when you want someone around you. Someone to be with you. Hold you. Love you. Respect you. But most importantly, accept you for who you are. Accept the things you've done in the past and be glad that it's made you the person you are today.

Other times in life, you just want to be alone. To be left alone. Not consult anyone for advice. To be independent. And just going for it.

Kind of like the way I feel right now.

As I sit on this plane by myself, I feel content. I'm happy with the way things have turned out for me thus far. Some things I'd like to forget, but for the most part, life is good. To be happy is the most important thing in life, isn't it? Moreso than money and love? (I know many people would argue with me on that, but each to their own. These are my opinions, remember?)

For those in my life who see me regularly, you'd know that there isn't a day that passes where I'm not smiling. And it's crazy to think that people have asked me time and time again, 'Why are you so happy?'.

What they don't know is, sometimes, those smiles are masking certain feelings. Hiding certain emotions. But I do my best not to let it show - at least not to those around me who know me as the girl who loves to write and is always smiling hehe

I admit, I do tend to not disclose the information that has me feeling the opposite of happy. I've learnt a lot about myself during the past couple of years, like when I'm happy, I'm easily persuaded to let others know the reason behind my smile... just to share the positive vibe around.

When I feel that first cut, however, I tend to be a little quieter throughout the day, waiting for the moment when I'm in my room. Alone. Then depending on how much it hurts, I'll either hide under the covers and try to forget, or I'll turn on my laptop, let the feelings brew and start writing. And I usually won't stop until I've let it all out.

Few people pick up on my mood (when this happens) but most don't and that's okay.

Right now though, I'm not feeling like that at all. I'm feeling content, excited, nervous, curious and I'm patiently waiting for a certain someone to answer me back.

I'm on the plane on the way to Melbourne, but as much as most people in my life think it's just another holiday, it's moreso a trip for me to meet the team of people I've recently started working with. I'm part excited, part nervous about it - only because I want to make a good impression. Coz well, the first impression counts doesn't it? Hopefully all will be okay...

As for that certain someone? That particular individual is back in Sydney and has no idea that I'm on my way to Melbourne (unless they decide to stalk my Facebook!). But if they are ready to give me an answer, I guess I'll have to wait til I'm back in Sydney to hear what they have to say.

Til then, I'm ready for whatever Melbourne has to offer me.

I'm out.
Peace yo.
chauie

M.I.A

Hello Hello

Just wanted to let you guys know that I'll be M.I.A (missing in action) for the next few days as I'm off to Melbourne later today for an Acclaim event - soo excited!!

So therefore that means I most likely will not be posting anything. I'll probably still be writing a few pieces here and there but I generally will not be able to post.

In the meantime, check out my review (below) of the Lupe Fiasco gig this past Sunday at Sydney's own Enmore Theatre at my second family's website: http://www.thirteenitches.com.au/ or to click straight on to the review: http://www.thirteenitches.com.au/blog/?p=1764

Peace out yo.

Take care.

x

Scarily True

My horoscope for today is scarily true in terms of my current mood:

"What in the world is going on? On the one hand, you have thoughts that are rather humanistic and harmonious about both your family and your career. But on the other hand, you also have a deep desire to destroy everything in order to start fresh!"

This morning I felt confident. More than I have about myself in a while.
It's wierd coz I had less than 5 hours of sleep, bad coffee and a boring brekky and yet, that didn't deter my mood.

Maybe I'm still on a high from the Lupe Fiasco concert last night...
(Hopefully will get to do a review on that early on this week)

Yesterday I went to the temple again to pray for all the bad things /luck/spirits to be gone and not have them affect me (and my family) this year and I came to the conclusion that this year is the year for my career to take off. Scary that today's horoscope thinks so too..

And I'm talking about my dream career of writing... my current career role, on the other hand might be relevant to the flipside of the abovementioned horoscope.

I do have a desire to rid myself of this life. Everything that comes with it.
Except my writing - it's the only thing that keeps me sane.
Recently, I've had a strong desire to quit. Not just my current role but some people in my life.
Sometimes I don't know why I still engage in conversation with them.

Guess it's still a question that is left to be unanswered.. and will be unanswered for a little while methinks.

Til then, I'm hoping my mini escape to Melbourne will help this week.

Peace out yo.

Update: Balance

I've had a really good 24 hours.

I planned to do nothing this weekend, but last night, I went over to a mate's place and watched him and one of my best mates make beats and experiment with their DJ equipment. It was pretty crazy to watch and listen to whilst I was lost in my own thoughts.

I've been a little paranoid with one of my mates thinking he was pissed at me but last night we hung out / chilled / vibed and talked and it was just like old times.

It was something that I was definitely missing.

After last night, I feel like my life has reached somewhat of a balance.

Before last night, I had hardly seen any of my friends face-to-face for almost a month coz of all the craziness that had been happening - re: work, friends, writing, planning, family. But last night, it was good to see my best mate and not have any animosity or tension between us.

Anyways I've got a busy week ahead of me: concerts, class, work and my mini holiday to Melbourne! Can't wait!

- Going to check out Lupe Fiasco tonight at the Enmore and Jimmy Eat World tuesday night. Don't know if I'll do any reviews on either gigs but we'll see what happens.
- Class and work is part of my normal schedule although I'll want to speed through those hours hehe
- Thursday I jump on a plane to head down to Melbourne for a trip that will be both business and pleasure :)

Oh by the way, finally saw (one of my favourite artists) Kid Cudi live and whilst it probably wasn't the best time of my life, I'm still happy I got to experience it! Hopefully he'll come back soon and do some shows. Fingers crossed in the meantime.

As for that guy whom has recently entered in my life and could be a potential? Things are going alright for the moment and whilst I haven't told many people about it... I'm okay with things for now. At the moment, if things don't work out... I think I'll be okay. Key word: think haha

Anyways I'm outta here.
Gotta get ready and stuff.
Peace and love yo.
x
chauie