So far, I've had a great week but on the way home tonight, I found out some bad news about a family member and for some wierd reason I don't feel sad.
I mean, yes, I feel sad and sympathetic for her and her family right now because we don't really have all the information we want or need right now... but I just feel strange.
I feel like... something worse is around the corner.
I know it's a bad thing to feel. A worse thing to even let that thought cross my mind.
I mean, what could be worse than the end for someone you love and care about right?
I don't know what else to say right now.
I feel like I need to write.
I was talking to my workmate earlier in the week and I told him writing is my main form of expression. I often clam up and get all shy and shit, especially when I'm in a crowd, in the limelight or meeting new people, but give me a pen and paper and I could probably write for days on end..
Unfortunately, right now I feel that there are no right words to help me describe the exact emotions and feelings that I'm experiencing at this point.
So on that note, all I can do is stop and try and gather whatever strange thoughts are in my head and try to make sense of it all.
//Edit: Now I'm crying (just a little) listening to the following lyrics:
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
But please don't cry, just know that I have made these songs for you
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
'Cuz I'm ready for the funeral
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
So please don't cry, just know that I have made these songs for you
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
'Cuz I'm ready for the funeral
(I'm ready for the funeral, I'm ready for the funeral)
Night,
chauie
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