I was mysterious
'The girl was in action'
A lot of times I wonder why I cant be that girl in Sydney.
Actually i know why...
I know the answer to my own question but it's stupid:
I'm scared.
Scared of rejection
Scared of conversation
Scared of those awkward silences
Scared of the fact that i know I'll clam up even when no words have been spoken
Anyhow,
Time to drag my sad self to bed now.
Night,
chauie
'Red letter day and I'm in a blue mood. Wishing that blue would just carry me away' - Many The Miles, Sara Bareilles
Well I'm sure most people would feel this way.
ReplyDeleteThe why am I scared...
I mean, I'm like that as well.
I guess it is the fact that you KNOW you are in a different environment. So you can let yourself go and do what you please, do what you feel like from inside. Do things without stopping to think "What if?".
But in Sydney, in the back of your head you know that you have people here. It is like, say, your little rainforest, and you don't want to disrupt anything here.
I guess you should try and have that same mentality while you are in Sydney (easier said than done for most). But as they say, "Better to have tried and failed" or something like that.
I guess once a person overcomes that fear, they can go a long long way...
You can be that girl in Sydney, you just have to let yourself be her.
ReplyDeleteCome back to Melbourne and visit me again soon. We shall tear up the dancefloor once more.
Loveeee xx