Finished!

Hey yo

Sorry for the lack of posts lately. Was stressing out over my last week of study. Essays, exams, feature articles, presentations and a 3000-word report - all due over 10 days. If you were in my position, you'd be stressing out too!

Anyhow I'm back now :)
I finished my last class on Wednesday night and man, it felt good. I finally felt like I had achieved something. Granted, I still have another year to go considering I chose to continue with the Diploma, but I would still be content with finishing right now with the Certificate IV of Communications and Media.

I went to Uni back in the day but I dropped out. I was officially a "college drop-out" lol. That didn't matter to me. My parents were pretty peeved coz we spent so much money. But everything happens for a reason right? I mean it's not like my life spiralled out of control after that and I found myself doing nothing. I actually did have a little bit of a break but then I started applying for whatever job I could whereby a couple months later I found the job I'm currently at. That was almost 3 months ago. Crazy...

Anyhow... after realising my passion for writing was more than just writing for fun and actually wanting to write and get published, I applied for a short course with the Sydney Writer's Centre for 5 weeks. I didn't know how I'd feel being back in a classroom but because the class was mixed with different age groups, somehow it made it more comforting, merely for the thought that I wasn't the only mature-age person wanting to go back to study.

After that, I started looking into courses at other institutions. Funnily enough the first class for the Certificate was the week right after my short course finished. Talk about good timing.

I really feel like I've come a long way from the girl I was, say 5 years ago. My boss pointed it out to me a few months ago but I didn't take it in cause I didn't personally feel like I had reached that point yet. After that week of study though, I think I'm finally doing alright for myself. I hope I did as well this semester as I did last. Only time will tell now. Anxious!

Another surprising thing happened last weekend - in the midst of my stressing out, my best friend convinced me to come out to welcome home an old Uni mate - and I was able to catch up with a few people I hadn't seen in yonks. There was one friend, Tony, when I told him what I had been doing with my life since I saw him last - working, studying, and interning - he told me he was proud of me. That's something, isn't it?

Whenever you hear someone tell you they're proud of you for doing something that you don't think is a big deal it's pretty spesh. It kinda puts things in a fresh perspective. :)

I've also been doing some other thinking... This weekend I'm finally going to start letting go of my past. And the first step is to clean up my Facebook friend list. I can't believe I accepted "friend requests" from people who used to treat me like shit back in high-school and the days after "the best six years of your life" Bullshit!
They don't deserve my time nor do they need to know what I'm doing with my life - re: status updates.
If they really wanted to be my friends, they never would have used and abused me in the first place!

The thought crossed my mind the other day coz I saw a girl coming out of the train station near my workplace whom was part of the "popular" girls back in high-school. The girls bullied me for lots of reasons. One I'll share: the group consisted of eleven girls (me included) and one day decided they only wanted ten so they made up a rumour about me cheating in a major exam and decided they couldn't associate themselves with a cheater so they kicked me out. WTF?

What a load of shit.

By the way, that girl that I saw, she still looked like a bitch. Unapproachable and snobby.
I don't mind talking candidly about it coz it's the facts.

The reason for this sudden change? Not to sound corny, but I think my future is looking bright. Brighter than I could have ever predicted. Case in point: my editor at Acclaim magazine [the one I'm interning for] emailed me the other day and proposed a great opportunity! To write an article for the next issue!!! My dreams are finally coming true!

The catch? All I have to do is interview a Sydney hip hop duo called Horrowshow and basically chat to them, drink with them and take a few photos. She said that "it sounds a lot scarier than it is" haha

Let's hope I can do it. She's aiming to organise for the interview to happen next week! Woot woot!

On that feel-good note, I'm out.
Peace.
x
chauie
'It's a new dawn, It's a new day, It's a new life for me. And I'm feeling good' - Feeling Good, Muse